hellos,
quite somedays since i blog =]
ended my monday with training.
it's tiring simply mental and physically.
i dunnno why but maybe sch's already tiring.
i m certified slacker.
i failed to get good attendance these days
failed to complete work on time.
failed to sleep early! =p
aiya anyway, today went training.
i dun have confidence sia.
i only caught one good ball.
that's all, =[ alot of ball, didnt catch sia.
i scare!! all of the balls i used volleyball dig.
never even grab the ball sia.
im damn loser.
how to prove myself that i m qualified?
with this kind of results, im not even qualified.
i cant give excuses like, oh becos my ankle pain.
i cant kneel down well, it hurts.
it's not about my weak ankle,
the mentality is not there.!
and i faced this phobia.*always.
when rezal or even jeff used box or herdles
i had to jump over! it's like so dangerous lo!
i really got this phobia sia,
im afriad that i fall over tat thing.
if we dun put the box over there,
i can even jump better and higher than tat!
i m so so so concern about the box there!!
that i cant concentrate shooting!
for real, when i was jumping over,
my heartbeat was power.! super fast.
and be4 i jump, my tears wanna drop already lo.
i was very angry with myself for this result today.
and anyway, xiaoxuan and me went to keep equip.
wah , damn scary. rezal's classroom,
was very dark and eeriee....
in fact i m really very afraid of dark,
and imagine me and xiaoxuan walking very fast there
we never sprout a single word,
i m damn scare already my god.
there's this spooky feeling at that place!! =[=[
when we open the door, huge wind came,
damn scary, then xuan said: scary sia! * very loud.
i got more scared sia. but xuan i m sorry for shouting at u.
i shouted ,go in leh! hahah!
i m just trying to keep myself brave and fierce! hahahah
i felt safer that way. =[ like all these are bullshit.
nothing in there la! u know? ahhaha!
it sound pretty dumb talking like tat. hahah
i m freak out! soon after rezal came.
lock the door and i walk pretty fast in front of them.
and my tears just whack down!
i feel like running to sports hall!
but i scare! i m scare i m scare!!!
i m timid ass though i always act like brave shit!
goodnitey!
i m sleeping at 2am today
if not tmr herman bro angry.
dun fren me! hahah
